What day is it

What day is it

no really

what day is it

I have never done this before

Try to retell a story

or a memory

and not remember when

or where exactly

it happened

It is Wednesday

but it is alarming

that the past week

all seems like

one big long day

I will not keep dwelling

on the sadness

but I will say

I will dwell on

the amazing things

that are happening

all around me

I love to tell

the sweet stories

that have happened over the past few days

From the last few moments of Grammy's passing

the nurses were right

it was so spirit filled

beyond amazing

Watching my sweet father in law

love her

even when she was gone

he was so transparent

watching the out pour of love and support

I just can't thank everyone enough

from my parents stopping by

and calling

to my grandmother cooking

and the cards

and flowers

and help with the kids

and warm hugs

that linger

thank you

From a pilates class

that allowed me

to just talk

and understand

and cry

we all cried

I feel like this story

is touching so many others

that life truly is a gift

why does death

make us love a little deeper

hold a little tighter

give thanks a little more

I crave my husband

I crave his presence

he is the kindest man I know

I told him today

he makes me feel so secure

My kids smiles

warm my heart

Baylens dimples

Sams smile

Bo's hugs

I am so grateful

for them

The night of the funeral

Kevin was with his dad

but he came home

and hugged me

and we cried

and cried

He told me

that he needed me

I told him that I needed him

it was nice to feel loved

and to be able to give love

at the same time

and know

that they were equally needed

deeply

so

The stories keep coming

the powerful experiences keep happening

and even though I would love to soon forget this hurt

I hope I never forget

the feeling of love

and passion

and need

that I feel

for family

and friends

and I hope I never lose sight

on what is important

ever