intense conversation

Samantha and I had a pretty intense conversation tonight in bed. She was asking me all about heaven. She said that she layed in bed sometimes at night and worried that she would not wake up. She also told me that if she had to choose she would rather die in her sleep then not, so then she would not know she died. She told me she did not want to die after me because she did not want to be here without me. I can remember as a child thinking these same things. She said she could not picture heaven, she wanted to know if she would be able to see herself there, who would cook her dinner and what would she do. She wanted to know if there would be snakes and spiders there. I told her if she did not want those things to be there, then they would not be. She said she was really sad about it. I told her that that was normal and that is what faith is all about. Believeing in something that we can't see. I told her that I to this day struggle, and wondering, and worry, and get sad sometimes, but that it makes you really focus on the imortant stuff and what really makes you happy. I told her to pray when she felt scared, to pray to God to make her feel less scared. I told her to focus on being happy and to keep asking those good questions.

Then I went to read to Bo, and rock Baylen, which I love to do so much....and now I am on the couch with Walker talking with Kevin...which we got scary news tonight about Grammy. I just pray for peace and patience, and healing on so many levels. There has been a black cloud hanging out at our house lately, I know God is molding and shaping our family...never thought 2011 I would learn so much about grief love and trust. I do know I love my family so much, nothing is more important to me then my kids, dogs, husband parents and sisters. I love them and that is all the matters, I could live in a trailer park and as long as I had them, and they had me that is all I would EVER want. I am praying for comfort tonight...for Sams sweet little heart, for Kevins heart, for his mom and dad and for me to be strong, I have done enough leaning on others, it is time for me to show love by being the one to lean on.....

tender

Baylen sure did enjoy that yogurt.... Yesterday at Intermural fields was absolutly perfect...Sam led the way...started the hike not pleased...not the black church shoes and cute outfit...she was determined that this was not going to be fun....but by the end she was smiling andhaving a blast...Never would believe that three days ago Walker was as sick as he was at the vet...he was more puppy like then EVER! He swam, jumped, trotted, and kept up with the kids...actually the kids had to keep up with him! Bo, of course was in a full knight outfit, I am not sure what he was battleing but he was talking to something the whole way through the woods....and Baylen, oh Baylen, you thought this was the coolest thing we have ever done....he actually ran! Loved to pick things up and throw them....we will most definitly make this a Sunday afternoon adventrue! :)

After school today BO went straight outside to "dig a hole in the yard that made a tunnel so he could have a really cool hideout" He got distracted when he found this worm....note, I love how dirty his hands are all the time! LOve it!

Walker and I enjoyed the afternoon as the kids dug, ziplined and chased.....

I love Baby feet

And hands

Bo got hot, and then itchy...so we headed in....

Just to come back out after dinner....which was great...another thing we will be doing....a glass of wine in the front yard at dusk....after dinner, dishes done...ahhh now that was nice!

Samantha thinking Walker needed p'j's too.....

Great day....Perfect Day....right when I start thinking things could not get better and I will be sad when things change, I remember to live in the moment....we have done a lot of that lately!

Love you Bo Sam Rie Walk and Bay!

peacful day

Wonderful day

Woke for coffee and a trip to Riley's garden with Walker before anyone else awoke

Peaceful day

Walker is well, very well

He leaped when he saw Kevin run by,

I let him out and he jumped four steps and trotted nicely to catch him

Felt like old times today

Kevin and I thought back to lots of memories today,

like taking him to swim at the park,

we will be headed back there with the kids this afternoon

Yes, I think Walker has some living to do

He is eating, loving and pottying, and if we have all three

then we are good

Today I thought and prayed for all of those that have it so rough right now

Those that are nursing loved ones that are ill and knowing that the end is near

For our troops and how they are away from their families

For those that know they have a terminal illness

For those that have lost a loved one that is so close to them and they wonder how they will go on

We must not always look ahead and think we are the only ones suffering, but

look behind and know that others are too

That God is not in the suffering buisness, but in the comforting bussiness

He does not like us to hurt, but he does like us to go to him for comfort.

Gods giant arms are wrapped around our whole family right now,

just like they are wrapped around all that need him

I just pray I will not throw them off,

That I will continue to heal and be hopeful

And know that all if for the good,

And that God put loved ones into my life, which will

eventually be returned back to him,

and we will all be together in the end

on Gods time.

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Super fun day, as usual

I think I finally got it together

We will see how long that last

I can at least enjoy it for the moment

There was no fighting today

No rushing

No sadness

Just fun

The kids liked each other today

The house got clean, the kids were safe

Walker finally went to the bathroom

After two days of me invading his privacy

Baylen had a happy day

He woke up from his nap and was a busy little man

He went from room to room and just did random things

Samantha was in an amazing mood today

Wanted to do extra chores

Got dressed two hours early for soccer

It was weird

Bo continued to have a blast decorating for Halloween

We started our morning on the floor with Walker

Just giving him extra pets

Bo said "Mommy I am going to pray to God that Walker does not die, here I go"

He sat up, prayed "Dear God, oh please God do not take Walker, I want him here"

Then he said, "Ok, mommy, I told him"

Before I could even begin to start the conversation to explain to Bo that sometimes

our prayers go unanswered not because God does not want to give us what we want,

But because He knows what is best, and even though we think it is best that

Walker stays here,

That is soon will be time for Walker to return to Him,

Where he will have a new body and feel awesome...

Bo said, "Oh mommy, I think God is going to take Walker, I need to hold on to him real tight so I go fly up there with him" He closed his eyes and hugged on him

I said "Bo I don't want you to go with Walker, that would make me very sad"

He said, "Mom, I have a decision to make, and I don't know what to choose, I don't want him to be alone"

I told him that Riley will take care of him, and they both would watch him every day.

As soon as the conversation came, it went,

Bo was up and ready for some frosted flakes...

Deep Breath, really, what do I do after all that...

The things we learn from our kids

The morning was good

We were out and about,

drank lots of coffee,

played and cleaned, cleaned and played

I love the age where your kids don't care what you are doing,

as long as they are right there with you doing it,

so then when the older ones get home,

We can really do..

Like I said, today was one of those days that everything got done, and then some

My car got cleaned out,

an extra load of laundry, check!

Tons of organizing, which btw is so therapeutic to me and I love it oh so much

I actually hope for my house to get a little crazy

Just so I can have the rush of putting it back together

I had one of the best donuts ever with Baylen this morning at Ike and Jane's...YUM

That might have to be our Monday morning stop since Chickfila is our Thursday am stop..

with Jittery Joes in between

I must stop

Bo had so much fun selling his items for school fundraiser today,

He loves it

He called his me me and was a great salesman

We have the best me me by the way, she does anything and everything for these guys!

Bo was very excited to hear that Me Me had a lot of Halloween stuff for him,

We went to get it, and even though Bo had one of his anger fits,

which was much better then usual,

We had so much fun when we got home.

It was perfect,

Now we live in the bates motel and have many decorations ever so perfectly placed,

just to find new homes in the morning I am sure.

Samantha had fun at her soccer practice with her daddy

Which allowed me to have special time with my three boys, which called for a trip to

YoForia, gosh the fun o meter was off the charts today!

Tomorrow will be good, God is good....I just wish sometimes I could freeze it

As I lay on the floor with Walker in the evenings now, since he is no longer getting on he couch I go to him,

I hope that I will always remember that I did enjoy each moment

That I savor the fact that Walker is right there breathing, right next to me

That Baylen is learning so many things everyday and it goes so fast

That Samantha looks to me, every move for guidance

That Bo is so interesting and neat, so passionate and sweet, yet has a firery temper like you won't believe

I would not want it any other way,

I just never want regrets,

and I want to live in the present,

Looking forward to the future, yet not rushing it

Looking at the memories in the past, but not regretting it,

yes, that is what I want,

that is all.

sweet shots

Bo when we went for a Sunday evening bike ride....he dressed himself and had a cape attached to the back. We went to a hill and he rode down with feet up....at the bottom he paused about three seconds and we could hear him yell,,,,that was awesome!

Bo just delivered to Samantha and Baylen the vanilla pudding he made this afternoon, he said he was a good cookerman, Baylen agreed. After Bay finished his cup, he proceeded to collect everyones and tried to drink out of it...

Baylen cleaned his plate of spaghetti tonight, along with his bowl of rice, carrots and spinach. He was firs to finish and ate more then his brother and sister combined....yum!

Samantha got her Bible today at church, we are so proud of her. She read from matthew tonight, she said she needed a highlighter so she could highlight her favorite verses....it was so fun to cuddle up and read tonight...

Walker is out...Sunday night football is on...and Walker is tired from his busy weekend of going where we go (soccer game, walks, Pop Pop and Grammy's, grocery store, decorating for Halloween) He is only left when we go to church....he could use the rest....

This afternoon, which by the way I love Sunday afternoons where we go no where, do nothing and just hang.....we made a foam haunted mansion, which I picked up last year after Halloween for two dollars....yeah mommy...it was a hit....Bo and Sam and I were actually able to put this together with little pain, which is an acolplishment with Pepper, who over seas everything...Baylen even helped too....

I love that Sam still loves lovie....baylen does too....

So precious when they sleep, did not get a pic of Baylen, afraid he would wake up :)

Another perfect weekend,

With a perfect family,

Looking forward to a fun, busy

and blessed week!

this is a good one

Saturdays in the fall...

in Athens....

Does not get much better then that....

Things that I love that have happened in the past 24 hours....

Pizza night and Game night with Samantha beating her daddy fair and square at Monopoly!

Samantha playing her first big leauge soccer game and winning, and playing AMAZING!!!!!

Going to UGA football game with hubby and mom and dad and winning, winning big!

Crisp air...cool air, able to wear jeans and have windows open

Watching Bo decorate for Halloween over and over and over again, and really focusin on every move he makes..

Dressing Walker up in a witches hat... and him letting us

Baylen enjoying cinnemon rolls with Samantha on the couch on a early Saturday Morning

Baylen trying on every shoe in my closet

Walker just laying on the carpet in the den in perfect peace...and also when he jumped up on me today when he saw me after the game,,,,on hind legs and all,,,,yea Walker!!!

Bo is asleep right now on my lap....what a sweet face...

Football is on TV right now....love it after your game and watching the other games

Frozen Daq Drinks on the weekends

Watching Baylen love on Sams lovie

Barb-b-que

Kids Movie nights

It was a fun day...looking forward to a Sunday of peace tomorrow...with my family :)

free chick'n biscuits

Today was truly amazing...

Bay and I started it by going to target at 7:45 in the morning to get shampoo and facial cleanser.

Target is pretty cool when nobody is there

Then we went to Chick'fi'la and said, Go Dawgs get the cats and

Baylen got a chick'n biscuit.

There are pictures

from Dress like a cow day posted

and there is Walker front and center

spots and all

Then we came home and played

I had a delightful time with Samantha when I surprised her

and showed up for lunch, it was perfect

We laughed

We talked

We were silly

She held my hand the whole way back to the room

It melted my heart

Wow

It was amazing

She smiled the whole time

no stress

no worries

no anxieties

Well, maybe a little when I left

But I told her I could not come back

if I never left, which is something I

Learned from Bo's teacher this year!

I got to peek in on Bo and he was working

with a teacher on counting.

He got very bright eyed when he saw me

and I got a huge hug

arms wrapped all around my neck

I love to watch Bayen sometimes when I am holding him

I wish I knew what was going on in his head,

He looks like he really is trying to figure things out...

Love it when he is in his pjs with his bottle dropping the kids

off to school, I am so glad he is still at home with me.

this afternoon Samantha started going to the jr garden club

Bo and Bay played on the playground

Then it was to the

Halloween store, ah yes, once again

When we came home, it was decorating time,

Bo was so excited to see all the treasures come down from the attic

He spend two hours in the yard "decorating" He had so much fun

While I was rocking Bay to sleep I could see him on the front proch and he was so into

His own little world

Loved to see the wheels turning

He was so pleasent,

So happy

So good at what he does

He told me that when he grew up he would be a worker man

at the Halloween store and that he would live with me

Forever...

We also, to add to our great day, got Earth Fare for dinner,

BTW

best deal in town~

We all ate for about six dollers, smiply amaazing

Tomorrow is Friday, I love Fridays

It sure will be hard to top today!

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I love Wednesday nights....good time to regroup and look forward to the weekend.

Samantha you looked so cute today....I will miss the Bailey Boy's clothes that you still will wear

Today you wore a cute lady bug one that was red and black with shorts and a tank top with a matching red headband...your cute little snaggle teeth made it even cuter.

We had a fun princess puppet show in bed tonight...super fun and silly...

Bo you went to bed in my bathrobe and you looked like a boxer...

We had a dance party tonight and you giggled so much till you could not breath and you had Baylen going too....

Baylen, you let me rock you to sleep tonight and I felt like you were a little baby all over again, you did not want to get up or do anything but just rock rock, I loved it....I hope you will do that again for me tomorrow, something about those fat legs crossed, loving on Sam's lovie that she loans you and a passy in the mouth, I love to pat your bottom and feel that diaper, and watch your eyes get heavy. When I put you in bed you know how to pull the lion yourself in your crib to play music.

Walker sat and watched the whole time, he travels room to room at night listening to each bedtime story....I am so glad I notice these things.....now my glass of wine is waiting so I will go for now, thank you for a wonderful day....perfect in so many ways....

circus

Today was fun, we had nowhere to go this afternoon, my favorite kind of day!

Here are some things that I loved about it....

Baylen and I went to storytime

Baylen and I played in the yard

Dad came by and visited on the porch

Walker felt better

I sat in the playhouse and chilled for about three minutes

Bo read a book to me, he was so proud

Sam made great grades on her progress report, she was so proud

Everyone including Baylen was very giggly at the dinner table, even daddy

Bo and Sam played outside all afternoon while I was inside fixing dinner with the news on....

This is what I always remembered growing up...

Playing while I could smell dinner cooking....news was on and it was just calm, no rushing...

Love it, Baylen had fun on the floor and helped me cook

Went to the pool, kinda sad summer is ending, but love the fall!

I love watching Baylen toddle around, so sweet and cute and full of joy, love that smile, those dimples and his soft skin. Love Love Love this stage

Bo you are having a lot of trouble at night missing us and not being able to fall asleep in your own bed. I will know that I will miss this one day....I will savior you needing mommy to snuggle as long as I can. Here are some pictures from today and one from the circus yesterday....

beach fun

Samantha you had your first day of soccer practice tonight and I think you really liked it. You said it was weird not being the oldest and now you are the youngest. It is hard to have change, but I know you will have so much fun. I can't wait for your game this weekend!

Bo as usual you were up to smiles today. You are still seeming very tired after school...but getting better. You had so much fun at the circus tonight. I will post pictures tomorrow from our fun event. You gave me lost of hugs, kisses and pinkie promises today....you also loved looking out your newest pet addition "fishy" you are such and animal lover....

Baylen today you got shots at the doctor and you handled it like a pro! It is always so sad to me when yall get shots....you seem so happy and smiley and then you have that face of , how dare you do something like that to me! We had a lot of fun today, I love being with you and hope that I will always remember you this small. It is so easy to forget....

 

Walker, you had a good day, your tummy was a little upset but we were in contact with your oncologist and she will be checking in with you tomorrow. You are so happy and it made me sad when I could not take you to the circus tonight. I am so glad that your aunt carley gives you love when I can not be here. You seemed to be on your feet very well today. We had a great photo shoot this morning and I can't wait to post those pics tomorrow.

As for some thoughts, my big thought today is I am still trying to maintain that perfect balance. Just when you thing you have things under control you feel like something is not. As little as I try to go out and do I still always feel like I am so pressed for time...I always feel like I am in a rush....tonight I felt like I needed to be in three places at 6:00pm. Why is it that I think I can get it all done, and when I set that expectation nothing gets done well, just a lot kinda done. We were sitting at the circus and I knew that i needed to leave so I could have Sam hope for Soccer and me leave for a meeting. Each day I have the same conversation with myself and say, no, today is the last day of this...I will not be overbooked tomorrow and get to everything 10 minutes early, but yet again I feel like I fail...

How do you know when you are doing enough with your kids to feel like you are letting them go and do, yet not too much so you don't feel like you are going all the time. How do you know when you are working to help contribute for the family but not too much to where it takes away. I do know I like to be busy, so if I am not busy with one thing then it is another, I just wish I had that peaceful feeling more often. I know I am too hard on myself, I just want to be the best I can be, not to be the best, but the best in the sense that I am making everyone around me feel loved. Time to head to bed, yet again off schedule, try to head to bed at ten, now it is eleven twenty...yet again running behind. Glad each day is a fresh start....more tomorrow....Breath

so here it is

Great Day and here is why...

It feels like fall

Spent an hour in Bo's class this morning and did an art project with him, learned about his classroom and got a big hug

Baylen gave me a lot of kisses and we got a Chick'fila Biscuit together

I did not really go anywhere and Baylen and I just got stuff done around the house all day

Walked Bo to hip hop which he calls he' hop and he had a blast and was waiting for me outside on the sidewalk when i went to get him, wow what a big boy

Sam is asleep on me right now

Walker jumped into the car, this is awesome

Streets were crowded this afternoon with UGA traffic, love Friday afternoons of home game weekends!

Baylen loves to Love on Sams lovie

Went to the Halloween store which made Bo So happy

Bo and Sam had two friends to spend the night and everyone behaved so well,we went to the pool and got pizza came home played and watched movies, no time outs, no whining, crying, wanting, needing, yelling, running or anything...they were all angels!

Had a yummy bowl of chocolate icecream

got to see my great sister carley by the pool and my sweet grandmother

husband told me I looked super fit

had a great day with Monavie and super excited about the buisness that Kevin and I are doing together

Stood up to a mean neighbor about Walker and did not put up with people that talk bad about my babies

Had a really good deep cry...missing Riley like something aweful today, don't know why, but it hit me hard today, Want to hug on her....

Sam I love your attitude, Bo I love your excitement, Baylen I love your smiles

Sam: today you amazed me when you apologized for having a bad tone with me and cleaned your room without being asked

Bo: I am proud of you for being so sweet and having such a kind heart and always wanting mommy to lay with you, give you hugs and just be wih you when you play, you don't need material things, you just want to be with us

Baylen: I am so loving how you shake your head and laugh, how when you laugh I can see all your teeth, and How you are so busy doing all day long!

Walker: I am amazed how you are so positive and happy all day and just want to be with us and your heart is content

Random

Getting back into the swig of things and it is already Friday...
I am loving the fall feeling in the air, our windows are up and the air is off.
Putting Balyen down for a nap I am reminded daily that this is a little bleep in time and not too much longer from now those three hours of nappy time will be no more. I cherish these three hours Walker and I have to ourselves that we can tackle our to-do list. Mine is very long, Walkers is very short. He is on Sam's bed, just chill'n as usual. He does get off if I leave the computer and re-positions himself to slumber elsewhere where I am. So here is the list....

Laundry
Unload Dishwasher
Mop
Clean the potties
Organize photo albums and see what is missing from them
Order pictures for the family wall collage and birthday pics
Clean out the fridge
Organize the cabinets (i just did that)
Make a grocery list
Eat lunch
Clean up bo's room (i know I know)
Put away sam and Bays clothes (i know I know)
Oganize my desk
Make budget for Sept and do Aug budget
Go to target to get odds and ends
go to the library to return books
go to CVS to get my crazy meds, so I can function as a mommy
organize the art closet
Organize my workout/clients schedules
Do my devotion
make my food journal so I can actually follow one
catch up on my friends blogs
write I am thinking of you letters
tell everyone i have been wanting to tell how much they mean to me
go through the magazine pages that I have ripped out for 10 years
start thinking about christmas gifts
start thinking about christmas cards
prepare for tailgate and game
clean out car
check all 800 emails
buy music on itunes for classes
make two scrapbooks from trip
mend a thousand pieces of clothing that have been waiting
iron kev shirts
play ball with walker
sit in rileys garden
start projects in the playhouse
write our our family's daily schedule
figure out which vitamins I should be taking
figure out how I can have one on one time with each child each day
go to the pool with the kids
go to the potters house to drop off items
go through the kids clothes
organize my attic
go to the halloween store
get my godchild a gift and my kids godmothers a gift
go through our files
go through a million recipies
go through a stack of 40 magazines
read one of the 10 books on my list
plan a bible study
order new netflix movie
paint my nails and have a spa day with sam
have a spa day with my mom
email borders for a refund
get diapers points
go through coupons
give reciepts to those that owe me reinburstment
write Margaret a letter
get fitenss checks togehter
make new routines for classes
spend time with my husband
do monavie planning
get rileys charm
go to dollar tree
finish rileys memory shelf
organize photos on computer

breath

So, maybe I can get some of that done today? We will see...as for now I will chip away at the list just as fast as I add something to it. Hey, it is better then the alterative of being bored, having no kids or being single, or just not being! Tune into later, I can't wait to catch you up on pictures from our trips!

so much to say can't get it out

Sometimes I feel I have so much to say and my brain in on blog mode and I just can't get it out fast enough so here goes....

Sam...I am so proud of you. You have turned into quite the little lady. You seem to really be getting it now. You seem to know how you should behave you just choose if you want to or not. Most of the time you do, the only time you don't is when you are tired or hungry, and that is how I behave too. My dream for you is that I have taught you well, given you everything your heart desires, yet not so much that you are not grateful. I hope so much that the seeds we have planted take root, I can already see that many of them have. You try to teach your brother so much! You helped him with his "homework" yesterday and took so much pride in that. You in a very calm voice tell your brother that it is just not nice to yell at people. You got a letter to go into spectrum and you are very excited, we are so proud of how hard you work. I absolutely am in love with your silly personality, I say it so much but you are so spunky and I love it. You are a night owl and still are not requiring much sleep to function at all. You are so cute and even thought I don't want you to grow up, I look forward to outings with just us girls and I hope we will be super close like me and meme. Thank you for being such a good big sister to your brothers and an amazing daughter....

Bo, oh Bo. Lately you have had a little trouble with yelling. For some reason you yell about everything, and that little vein in your neck shows itself. I don't know what it is but you do not have a low volume knob, you are on or off. When you don't get what you want you get very frustrated and yell and grunt and charge. We have to work on that. You try to make deals with me like, "if you don't give me ice cream then I won't clean my room" Excuse me what? Or," If you don't let me stay up later then I am not going to brush my teeth". Buddy, we got to learn who calls the shots around here...You also can go from laughing to crying in about 2 seconds and then back. You have so much energy it blows my mind. Everything is very dramatic, when you want something you want it right then and if you don't get it, well, there will be you know what to pay. Mommy's goal this week in the parenting department is do work on this, well should I say, strong willed part of you. The thing is, deep inside is the sweetest cutest most passionate little boy I have ever seen. The thing is you put your whole heart into everything, like bugs, fish, pretending, Halloween and junk food, but we just have to work on being just as passionate about good manners and patience....

Bay Bay, you have grow so much this week. Just yesterday you said Ball, mommy, pointed at everything in the grocery store and said dahhh, learned to kiss, and walked around the church like a big boy. I realized today that I do not have a baby anymore I have a true toddler. I want you to stay the same, but daddy reminded me that I wanted that with Sam and Bo also, but look how they are now, and I want it again, each stage is fun, I just really like this one. I am going to give you a bottle, change your diaper and play silly pat a cake games as long as I can, I promise I will not feed you a bottle or make you wear a diaper to kindergarten. I say it all the time but you are so handsome and I I love every bit of you, which is a lot!

Walker, you are not getting in the car anymore or jumping up for a ball, but I am going to think positive and say that you are just having a tough couple of days from the trip, You are in your usual place on Sam's bed. You are still so happy and have some living to do.

I guess it is so true that if something is really worth something then it hurts to let it go....its like I feel when I leave the beach with my family, if I did not love them so much or have such a good time then it would not be that hard,

If I did not love being a mom so much to my three kiddos then it would be easy to watch them grow up,

If I did not love Riley so much, then I would not feel brokenhearted still when I think of her everyday,

If I did not feel so attached to Walker, then it would be easy for me to picture a day without him,

But, instead of being down and wishing for what I can't have, I instead am thankful for what I do have. I am thankful that I love deep and would not trade that so that I would not be sad sometimes. I would rather be a little sad to leave a family trip knowing it is better then not having the memories at all, and I can focus on the next one instead of longing for the one in the past.

Instead of missing Riley, I can let her still live right her with me

Instead of worrying and Walker I can live like he lives, carefree and faithful,

Instead of grieving my kids growing and changing and wondering if I have taking advantage of every moment with them and shown them how much I love them, I can look forward to the many adventures ahead and be confident that motherhood really never ends :)

Random

I am posting real quick because I am going through blogging withdrawls....since last at home so much has happpend. I recently had the conversation with my mom about change...I did not want to leave to go to Disney, then I did not want to leave Disney, then I was at the beach, did not want to leave the beach....I feel I get down when I go, ok when I am there, and then down again being back to what I was down about leaving? Today has been so busy, I am so tired, missing what I just had to leave...tonight I plan to blog about all the fun I had...I am looking forward in being back on a schedule of...GODFAMILYOTHERSometimes we take a few steps back to move forward....even though today has been busy, it has been a good day. I have not lost my temper, seemed frustrated or had any awful thing happen, it is just 3:47 though...BREATH....BREATH...BREATH...I just wanted a minute to sit down and play with Baylen today, which did not happen, and I HATE that.....Tomorrow we will be back to it....BREATH

Disney

Day five and we are still alive . Off to the bus to the monarail and to Obama breakfast it was a wonderful Hawaian breakfast and he kids got leis and are breAkfast with lelo Nd stitch Mickey and Pluto it was fun Bo loved all the tikis then we went to animal kingdom and did our favorite rides and then off to see a funny tree lady then we went on to MGM to se the indiNa jones stunt show and play in the honey I shrunk the kids playground we did star tours one more time and headed to mAgic kingdom. We just stated in tomorrow land and went al the way around the park the kids did try carasel of progress And loved it then we ended our night with getting jasmines autograph and riding splash mountain ten times the man let us stay in we rode till park close got straight on bus we ate at the hotel as Bo says this is where dreams com true...... Here are some this I loved. Watching Bo and Sam in the lines being goofy the smiles we got when they a
Saw characters the excitement they had on rides and sweetness they had towards eachother them falling asleep on me on the bus SAMs supper sillyness I mean super it cracked me up in Disney it truly is magical keep dreaming you dreams and they will come true zippidy doo da what a wonderful day and there's a great big beautiful tomorrow shining at the end of everday......let's keep this is our heart all year round and that we may have a plan yet sometimes plans don't go as planned but something else happens that may be even better....I loved watching how things were in the olden days from when walt Disney made his plans to watching movies like it was in the olden days . I hope Disney Always stays like I remember and keeps me a child at heart