Daily Delicious

I love how Bo talks with such passion. When he tries to get his words out it is like it is taking every bit of energy to say them. Amazing. Today when I asked Baylen where Walker was he looked right at him, this is the first doggie/person that he has looked at when asked where they are...priceless.

Daily Delicious

Bo was so funny today. He walked up to me like a Robot and said, "Push and I will tell you answer" I had to push him and he would tell me random things. Baylen learned today how to shake his head and thought it was hilarious. I went to Jittery Joes today and Walker hopped in the car in the front and hung his head out, it was delightful. He seems so happy. Poor buddy has no idea what is going on. I had so much fun doing bead crafts with Sam today in the playhouse. It has carpet now and the breeze that comes through is amazing. I know it is Riley passing through, love it! Bo is so all over the place. He has an on and off button and no inbetween. He enters a room with such energy. The cops paid us a visit today due to him pushing the panic button on the alarm, I could not believe it when they showed up! He learned his lesson, they gave him a pretty big lecture. This will be a story for the rehearsal dinner. They did not buy my story about not picking up Baylen due to my hernia surgery and that is why I shut my screaming kids in the house. Wow. All I can say is wow. All is well, Phoebe is over to spent the night with Sam, Baylen is sound asleep, daddy is working late and Bo Walker and I are about to cuddle in our bed with a book. Good night!

little behind

Have not written in about two weeks. I have not know what really to say. I have had so many blessings and so much hurt. With Riley leaving, Walker getting sick and surgery this has been a rough summer. I have so many blessings. There is so many things to be thankful for. I have learned so much these few weeks about myself. I plan to continue writing for my book, but also blog about what is going on. This is therapy for me.

What I am sad about... What I should think about instead
That Riley is gone Riley is still here in my heart and watching me
Walker is sick Walker is still here and I will enjoy every minute with him
I can't do like I would like to
since I had surgery I can spend more times on important things and it will pass


I am so thankful for parents and inlaws that are so willing to help me, sisters that listen to me cry, a husband that is my rock, a daughter that makes me laugh and is so real, a son that enters the room with so much energy, two dogs that taught me all I really need to know in life, a son that is the cuteset thing I ever saw and makes my heart sing!

Sam I love how you are so matter of fact and you have been so helpful to me these past few weeks. You have such dry humor and you have such the personality. You are sassy, yet kind, yet sweet, yet firy. You know what you want. You had so much fun today picking out school supplies. It was so much fun!

Bo, I love watching you just eat your frosted flakes today. I love how you are so excited to tell me things. I love how you look when you come up from air in the swimming pool. You were so much fun at the beach playing games at the King and Prince pool. You have so much energy yet so kind at heart. I love you so much and your personality

Bay, I love that you are walking and look like my little toddler. I love you and your big legs and hips. You are so sweet, loving and I love your laugh.

Riley and Walker Love

So I am so sad that we have lost Riley and are the verge of Losing Walker. As I wake up in the middle of the night or get sad during the day I have to think about what I have in my life that I love deeply. It is hard when we get bogged down on what we miss and miss what is around us. I loved and still love Riley so much. I love Walker and can't imagine him not being here. I have to also remember that even though this hurts so bad, it was worth it. If I did not have them then I would not hurt so bad, yet I would not have learned as much as I have from them. They also had wonderful lives here. I also have Sam, Bo and Baylen and a wonderful husband. My parents and sisters are amazing also.

What Riley taught me: that you need to let the people you love know you love them, you never know when you won't see them again. Make sure you do the things that matter most and don't get too bogged down on what does not really matter. Know that it was the little things in life that matter. It was the day to day actions that let other know they are loved.

Walker taught and teaches me: You can not worry about tomorrw, just enjoy today. We can't be in control. We can not worry about what the future holds. We need to enjoy the moment that we have right in front of us right then! Don't be sad thinking about what might be, be happy with what you have right at that moment.

What I love about Walker: he loves tennis balls, sitting in the front yard with his tongue hanging out.

Feeling Hot Hot Hot

Another hot one in A-town in July! I love living in the South! Went on a hay ride on a big john deer tractor last night with the kids and hubby, ah yeah, only is the south do you go on har rides being pulled by a tractor and a warm July night! Today we had a great time at the pool, it is so hot that is the place to be! Awesome Saturday with nowhere to go! My favorite!
Samantha we had a blast making sock puppets today during Baylens nap. You had be put pipe cleaners in your hair to make it stand out, hilarious! Bo, I loved watching you today watch things, you are so curious and I just love your little five year old face with your missing tooth. Baylen, I tell you what boy, you are a heart breaker! You want to talk so bad...your hair is still so blonde and you have the sweetest face in the world, with a big old booty, wow! Good thing you are not a girl or all those cute clothes would not be fittn' ya!

June Pictures

Swim Meet fun!

Riley's garden

Riley's garden in the works....

Riley you hated it when I sneezed

You loved to beg for food

You loved pancakes, and peanut butter sandwhiches

Just heard the pitter padder of fit come in, I could always tell between riley and walkers but this time it sounded like rileys, maybe she is walking through walker.

She would walk walk then fall to the ground with a loud thud and let out a sigh. 

June Pictures

Samantha built a really cool lego tower

Bo had a mow hawk just for a day, which he broke his nose, so it was not a good thing....This is crazy Bo!

Walker just hanging waiting for someone to throw him his ball

Some June Pictures

Bo and Baylen having fun in the yard

Samantha enjoying her new zip line

Breakfast in bed for daddy on fathers day!

Random kinda gross

Baylen has smiling eyes. When I look back at him in his car seat he always has the sweetest look on his face and it is as if his eyes are smiling. On a completly other note...I did a first this morning that I yet have done....cleaned a pirate figure after Bo thought it would be just so funny to stick his pirate in Baylens diaper, yet came up with a surprise and it was not a good treasure, argh! I don't know who was more upset, mommy having to clean it, Baylen feeling violated or Bo having to throw his pirate away...or maybe the pirate felt the worse...