Monday memory Roll

So I got a new cord for the camera...so now its back on!!!!

Not blogg'n is like not having my coffee

or my glass of wine....

So anyway

back on track...

Here are some pictures from our AWESOME trip to Disney on Ice

We took Sam and Bo

and it was so fun

We went to the mall, ate dinner, went to the Lego store

The kids were perfect, grateful

and it was a great night...

Sam grinned ear to ear the whole time

she enjoyed it so much I could tell

She was clapping and dancing

yet, a little hesitant

but her true dinsey self shined through

I took these two profile pictures

I could not believe how similar they look!

It was so cute, when Sam got home from school she wanted to change into her princess shirt!

Sam rocked the soccer field on Saturday

I am SO proud of how hard she works

I love love love to watch her face when she plays

She is the cutest thing out there....

This was SOOOOOOO funny!

Baylen saw Bo doing this on the playgroud, so he got a hat,

and followed him

This makes me smile

Afterschool snack

if the kids only knew how good they got it! :)

It may be April

But we had the sprinkler out and bathing suites on

Baylen had a blast

He picked his outfit

After a few minutes he decided to pull out the rocking chairs and just watch

And again

All baylens idea

looked in the backseat

goggles were on

passy in

ready to go to see Pop Pop

Had so much fun with Bo when Samantha was at Me Me's and Baylen was napping

We played all three games many times

so much fun to get one on one time with the older ones...

This morning I could not resist taking this picutre

I loved how he had his little food propped.

I love this time with Baylen in the mornings

He drinks his bottle

we eat breakfast

and he pats the seat next to him and says

Ma MA! Ma MA!

He is so sweet

Tonight he was peeking round the corner in the kitchen and saying

hey Low Hey Low

It was a great day

Did little cleaning

had lunch with Bo

watching Baylen play with bo and Sam on the playground

We had an amazing rain storm

which allowed all three kids to curl up very cozy

and fall asleep with me on couch

It was amazing to have baylen lay in my lap for over and hour

just still as can be

the others trickled in saying they were scared

not sure if they really were

but I didnt care

Can you tell daddy is not home tonight

I would have never gotten away with that.

I have to end with saying this

I am so grateful for the blessings that I have

I followed a blog about a mom that lost her 3 year old "Piper" to cancer today

Her sweet daughter was diagnoised right after she was born.

They have a seven year old also

She speaks of how they have lived in the hospital for the last two plus years.

My heart is heavy

I feel like right when I get axious or in my planning my life out mode

or worried about everything times...

I see something like this

Do I really worry that I am not in the moment with each of my kids all the time

This mom was aching because she felt like she did not pay any attention to her seven year old the last two years

We do all we can

I can honestly say I give my all to these kids everyday

Becuase I am truly in love with them

I do stuggle when I lose my patience sometimes

or can't get the one on one time with each of them most days

But that is okay

I got a lesson today in looking behind me istead of always behind

Knowing that there is some awful times out there

We all go through our storms

I just am enjoying our calm waters right now

I am deciding the I love being in the middle

So often I focus on the people that seem perfect

they eat perfect, do everyting perfect health wise or motherly wise

But then I remember to look behind me

The ones that eat awful

I mean treat there bodies AWFUl

and the ones that are no good mothers in any way

I am glad I can say I fall in the middle

a good place to be

not Obsessive

but caring

thank you lord

for toddlers that are the cutest thing...I love this stage so much I wish I could freeze it

For school lunches on lunch trays

For a daughter that is a mini me and loves to plan, talk and get to the bottom of things....and over thing most things, but we are both working on that

For a awesome boy, that never ever stops he wears me out, but I love it!!!