Heres to a new year

I feel like my new year is just now starting

It is suppose to start and January 1st

but for me

I feel like

I am starting now

Tomorrow is Feb 1st

and it is my new year

things were just as crazy in January

as they were last year

but now

I feel like we are settled

We have new beginings

still remembering the past

but not hurting quite as bad

because we now know

that even though we have lost

we have not really lost

we have memories

and them

with us

forever

It hits me

so hard

everyday

when I think of the loss

It is like I almost forget

and them bam

It hits me

Riley is gone

Walker is gone

Grammy is gone

Life moves on

but they too

can move on with us

I indeed

and taking a brand new year

and slowing down

and trusting

and playing

and enjoying

I will do the things I have spoken of

I will try to be better in so many ways

but know

that I am not perfect

I have my goals

I will strive here on out to acheive them

but know

I will fail

that is why I need God

I will make sure

I will try

to not be so

obsessive

in so many ways

so many

Right now

I have the sweetest boy named Bo

The kindest girl named Samantha

and the cutest little boy named baylen

and precious puppy named piper

that is tugging oh so much at my heart...

and again

an amazing husband

that I fall in love with

more and more

each day

Here is piper, finding a warm spot in the hall, where the sun comes in, Walker did the same thing

Baylen decided to play the drums....well in the buff

piper kisses

Bo decided to get every single one of Walkers toys and give them to piper, as she layed on Riley's bed

very sweet

sam and baylen getting a little cozy before bed

and she's out for the count....

great day...

in the sunshine

in the yard

swing'n on the swings

eatin'n lots of snacks

lov'n just being with the kids...never gets old....