New Normal

Even though this new normal

is not perfect

we are learning

how to do it

not in anyway

are our hearts healed

but

we did do something today

that we have not done in a while

we just were

we did not rush

we did not plan

we did not really think

we just were

we took the kids

out to a family friends house

and stayed for hours

and played

and laughed

and just were

we would have never done this

if it was the old normal

we would have been too busy

too involved

in everyday things

but instead

we made time

to just be with loved ones

and had so much fun

just being together

I am realizing that I have not done this enough

the busy life gets in the way

we ate pizza

and drank coffee

and did not care about messes

or the time

we savored every minute

and it was great

to escape for a few hours

and have a little normal

new normal

It was the first day

in a long long time

that we did something

that was not planned

or had to be

or needed to be

or should be

we just enjoyed

This new normal

will become more normal

each day

and I will make sure

to find the good

in the bad

and know

that

sometimes sadness

can bring happiness

in its own way

Yes

I am sad

very sad

but among the saddness

I am happy

Happy that the little things no longer matter

and as long as I am on the floor playing

In the bed with Sam having girl talk

or listening to every word and responding to everything

that comes out of Bo's mouth....

Cuddling with my hubby

talking on the phone to family

hanging out with friends

then I have all that I need

yes

we will be okay

one day at a time