Hit by a train

This must be

what it feels like

to be hit by a train

I woke this morning

feeling

empty

Everything hurts

what was I thinking

wearing those heels

we greeted for over four hours

that was truly amazing

Kevin still amazes me so

so much

I enjoyed a glass of wine

around Pop Pop and Grammys kitchen table

with my shoes off

around eleven last night

just Pop Pop Kevin and I

He said

This just ain't fair

Nope

it is not

life sure threw us a curve ball

it is fitting that is was foggy when we left last night

foggy this morning

I feel like I am in a fog

I know this is a dream

ready to wake from it

just want everything back like it was

but thankful for so many family and friends

that show so much support

taking a big breath

to get through today

can't wait to kiss my kids

and my husband

Feeling

empty