I feel moved

I will admit

I was down yesterday

sometimes the walls tend to cave in a little

I have to ward off that anxiety

daily

Sometimes it wraps its arms around me

and squeezes tight

very tight

and I can feel it physically

and mentally

I get stuck on everything

from cleaning

to organizing

to workout schedules

charts

charts

and more charts

I get a bit overwhelmed

and quite moody

This happens every so often

when I lose a bit of control

in the situations

that I am facing

And then

I realized that I need a little God time

and that I have yet again

forgotten who is in control

Gives me grace

and mercy each day

So when I am overwhelmed

really with things that I put on myself

I remind myself

that I need not be

that it really does not matter

and no matter what I do

the right thing will happen

that was to happen

in that moment

So

when I am trying to make the perfect decision

and having what if thinking

I need to put the blinders back on

and realizes that yet again

I over think

and

over do

many things

So it was in my Pilate's class

where I just breathed

And our bible study class

where we spoke of Gods grace

Where God refrains form punishing us when we are guilty

and Gods mercy

where He has compassion for our sadness

I remember

that when I mess up

it will all work out

and when I wonder if I made the right choice

I did

because if it was the wrong one

I will learn from it

and if it was the right one

well

then its good

but most importantly

I need to breath

Anxiety is my sickness

I battle it everyday

We all have our thorns

I am thankful for mine

it reminds me how much I need God

each and everyday

to stay focused on Him

and remind me

how little I am

and How big he is

and His love for me

is

unmeasurable...

I thank him for the angles he send me everyday

a husband that loves me

unconditionally

and tells me that I Rock everyday

everyday

really he does

Kids that I love more and more

each minute of the day

if that is even possible

and friends

that put a smile on my face

and family

that warms my heart...

I am surround by angles

that are in the present and the past

I know the ones that have wings now

are right there with us to

everyday

everywhere

I feel moved

yet again