Wonderful Wednesday

So today I noticed there are so many moms

walking around

looking cute in their fitness clothes

why don't I look cute

I always look sweaty

and mine don't match

I notice moms walking around with coffee cups

If I did that

it would be all over me

I notice moms with really high shoes

and tight cute jeans

I start that way in the morning

But can't get over how silly I feel

That I am dressed cute for

painting and playdough

Balancing lookin cute

and being sane

Balancing wanting that coffee

but acutally getting it into my mouth

balancing wearing workout clothes

but not living in them

and If I do

make sure they look cute and matchy

but not too matchy

because that is so not cute

How come every night when I go to bed

I just want to hug my three kids just one more time

one more little squeeze

I remember all the times during the day that I said

not now

not becuase I needed to read a book

or paint my nails

but because one of the other ones needed something

I wish I could hold hug and cuddle

each of them

each time they called for it

I felt bad

because yesterday was an extra clingy day

I need a solution for the 4-5 hour

Homework for Sam

which is challenging

Bo in tornoado mode

what I mean is this is the hour of the day that he can take a clean room

and yard

and make it look like he had 15 friends over to play with everything he owns

But he also wants to play a game....

which we do,

but it is interupted by lots of mommies

mommy I don't understand number 5

This is also the hour that Piper awakes from her slumber

and is ready to play

bite

chew

eat

and potty

It is also the hour

that Baylen wants to be held and he wants you to give him

snack and more snack and more

So

when I say I wish I could be huggy all the time

When I settle at night

I feel bad that I was not able to be what they needed

all the time

and yes

sometimes I say to them

there is one of me

and four of yall

So

last night when we got into bed

and my sweet husband rolled over and wanted to hug

I had to tell him that I needed time

to not be hugged

this sounds so awful

But I had had a day

where I was touched all day

I was enjoying a moment of not being touched

It is ironic that Piper is in a phase right now

that she bites at your pants leg

and pulls

I drag her through the room attached to my pants

It is how I feel

I am not complaining here

Just noticing that sometimes it is hard to be everything

to everybody

on their time

I am trying during lent to fast from crazy

and do what needs to be done

then move on

enjoy what I am doing

and move on

and try to put me into what I am doing

just a wee bit more

so I can be better to serve all around me

It is a wonderful wednesday

happy kids

story time at the library

and a pretty clean house