Thankful Thursday

So here I go

already behind

It is really Friday

but I did not post last night

becuase I was counting out 456 t-shirts for a race that I am directing

I know excuses

My OCD was rearing its ugly head

I want all 456 people to be perfectly happy

Even though I know

this will never happen

but I am still striving for perfection

I still spend hours counting

rechecking

and counting again

This nice rainy day

I am consumed with perfection

But I did stop myself

just now

and made myself eat lunch

and I will stop

to take a shower

and look nice

for me

Even though I usually like to cut it to the wire

and run myself ragged

I am trying

Even though I am behind and a lot of my goals

I will stick to them

These 40 days of lent are about when you fail

you try again

I am thankful

that I have this time

to really think about

how I treat myself

so I can be better to others

I need to make sure

that I know that God has it under control

and in the long run

does it really matter if someone gets the wrong shirt size

no

it really does not

but it does matter if I get frustrated with my kids

or others

because I am stressed.

So thankful for realizing this

Thank ful for the rain

and friends

and coffee....