Happy Valentines Day...to me

I know it is weird

I have not posted in two days

the truth is

the real truth

I crashed

I officially

after 12 months of

hard

I finally tipped..

not proud

a little upset with myself

but know that is the problem

that I am upset with myself

I have decided

that for Valentines day

I am loving myself

I think for the very first time

I have been loving others

so much

so much

I still will

but my body and mind

are falling apart slowly

trying to keep this pace

this pace of perfection

in all areas of my life

so

for valentines

I will start loving myself

only because I know if I don't

I may not be much good

to everyone that I love

some things are going to change around here

I am going to have to let some things go

most of all

the perfectionist attitude that I have

and the insecurities

I just have to

I am not quite sure what my plan is

maybe that is good

I just do know

that I have to start putting me on my to do list

somehow

I don't want time to myself

I just want to stop thinking so much

here goes nothing...

I will keep you posted