good person

I thought a lot today

a lot more then usual

I don't know if it was the sermon

or being with my family

or spending time with Kevin's family

or walking with my parents

or listening to my kids

or working in the garden...

but I did a lot of thinking

I think I think too much

I worry too much

I get bogged down

way to much

I want to be a good person,

yet I know that I am not a perfect person

I want others to know that I know I am not a perfect person

yet I want to try to be the best person I can be

I don't know if I am just insecure

or think too much about what others think

But I want so badly for people to know

that I always mean well

I really do

I don't know when I cross the line of

caring a lot

and seeming like I am judging

The last thing I ever want to do

Is seem like I know it all

I don't

I so don't

But I want to help others

How do you balance that

How do you always come across like you have

others interests in mind

and not your own

How can I radiate positive energy?

I thought about this today,

I thought about it a lot

I have so many things I want to

do

say

read

tell

remember

I get overwhelmed

I want to read every book

listen to every sermon

capture every moment on camera

remember every funny and sweet thing my kids said and did

the list goes on

and on

and on

How do you let go

How do you just live

and enjoy

and not try to do it all

be all

read all

see all

I want to live in a manner

that I know God is

allowing me to see

do

remember

all that he wants me to

it is a daily battle

when I need to come to him

remind myself that he is indeed boss

and that I am along for the journey

these pictures remind me of that...

I want to enjoy every sweet little bite....

Be crazy and not care who is looking...have fun all the time...and love life always...
Smile often
Hug often...
And always stop to look at what is important....

#31 Baptisms

#32 Christmas lights

#33 My kids crawling in bed with me

#34 Italian food

#35 A passionate sermon that gives me chill bumps

oh and yesterday's

#36 Heating pads when you pull your back out

#37 When Georgia wins a game

#38 Having a long Holiday weekend

#39 Reading a book, even if it is just for five minutes

#40 Getting your email inbox under 100