Still at the beach....

Kinda hard to be on a blogging schedule at the beach

So tired at night

just want to fall asleep

I will have to say Baylen went through a two day

I don't know what I should call it

full day tantrum

sleepless  nights

no nap

and many fits

Instead of blogging about it

I chose to let it pass

and blog again

when things were better

and they are

Baylen has actually

been pretty perfect

which is never what I want

I don't want perfect

I just don't want horrible

and yes

he was horrible

just something inbetween

will do

A quote that I really like is

This soon shall pass

So

in the heat of a fit

it will pass

and it does

I just wish the good times did not pass so fast

and the not so good times

went super fast

but it all balances out

I was on a bike ride with Baylen this morning and was thinking of what a struggle it is

to stay in the moment

I often find my mind wondering to the past

past memories of the kids little

the cute things they did

the pictures I will look at

that will bring up a warm thought

or memories of my own childhood

like sandwhiches at the beach

Disney trips

Chistmas mornings

movie nights

pizza night

family time

I find myself wishing for it back

and then

I will just forward

and think of how it will be when all four of ours are grown

and Kevin and I are walking our dogs on the beach

talking about Bo Sam Bay and ?

as adults

and then

I remind myself

the past is the past

and It was good

but it gets better

those memories are ALWAYS with us

they are not gone

we can live them over and over again

I don't have to be sad as my kids grow

we will have new fun things to love and enjoy

and still have the fun memories to revisit at anytime

And as for the future

I am in no rush for that

but it is a fun thing to focus on

for positive thinking

thinking about being 80 or 90 and still going strong

knowing that that will be a fun time to

But for now

I am happy where I am

right now

which is amazing

that I opened to my devotion today

titled

"I think I can"

Psalm 107:4-8

It is a rough day

much to do

little time to do it

You are needed by too many people

There is not enough of you to cover it

If you do indeed give the 150 perccent that they demand

you will break

Piles of laundry

bills

dirty floors and faces

You were suppose to leave an hour ago

but everyone is still in pj's

Sometimes I think it might be nice to be in prison for a day

just to be

I laugh at myself for such insane thoughts

Instead of thinking

I can't do it

I should say I can

We can do all things through Christ

So really we should say

I think He can

So I stop

and ask God

to remind me of all that is good

Think basic

food shelter love light

Don't go big

I want to run away from frustrations and pressures

Help me to take on one thing at a time

this day

Help me see you working through these things that are screaming at me at once

I love love this devotion!

A memory that I want to remember forever...

baylen running after his brother and sister at the pier shops on SSI

he was so proud of himself

saying "here we go"

I hope I remember that little voice forever

Trying on hats

pointing at manicans

saying "whoe"

Bo always in fighting action mode

Samantha always wanting to help

always putting the other one first

always

Watching the kids in the waves on the beach

how silly goggles look on their faces

watching them swim

play on a playground

eat a snack

get a redbox

I hope the little things

are always the big things....