Quiet

It is 8:03 on a Thursday morning

day after the fourth of July

all the kids are sleeping

really

for real

I actually layed in bed this am

and was tired of laying there

that has not happend since highschool I think

It is so quiet

i know any minute it will not be

but I thought for the moment

I could gather me thoughts

I will post soon the pictures from the parade

they were so neat

Samantha came in first, even though it was not a race

she was racing to come inside to get her dress on

she had it perfectly planned to make a quick change into her festive girly attire

She was her usual self all day yesterday sweet as can be

yet making sure everyone else was in line

by worrying about every little thing everyone else was thinking and doing

Sometimes I want to tell that girl to relax

breathe

but it is like I am staring into a mirror

She reminds me often

of how we both need not to be

so involved all the time

need to turn that off button off or atleast to cruise

and just enjoy and not be so strung out

On the other hand

my other child

may not need a on or off button for his mind like we do

but rather just one in general

I am pretty use to Bo and his Bo actions

But when he is in public

not everyone is

He just has an on and off button

the think is

his off button is just when he is sleeping

which he usually is in about two seconds after he lays down at night

Bo has the opposite problem that Sam and I have

instead of thinking too much

he does not think

at all

any

never

He just does

Instead of getting mad

I just learn from him

Thinking how nice it would be

to just do what came to mind

and not really think about it

We really ultimatly would benifit from just balancing eachother out

Sam could use a little of him

and he could use a little of her

I feel so bad for him sometimes

when he does something not so good

and then realizes it afterwards

he has that look on his face of

man, that was not smart

I love the fact that he is ALWAYS

jumping, climbing, yelling, crawling, imaginary fighting or making some kind of noise

He is a pretty creative being

in a whole different way of his sister

And then I think of Baylen

who is just too smart for his own good

who struggles right now to get all of what he wants to say

out

I can't imagine being two

wanting to own the world

and tell everyone everything

yet can't find the words to say it

I love his faces and his hugs

I love how he wants to take everything out of his bed in the morning

and just cuddle

I love his love for his brother and sister

Pepper and Bo Bo as he calls them

I love the love the all have for eachother

and I feel like the one in my tummy

is just wanting to bust out to join them

I feel like he or she will be the exclamation mark

to a very amazing sentance

The three of them all have such a different personality

that all together make my life so complete

I feel complete

Now

as I type this not a one of them has stirred

Piper is even laying in front of me

and looks just like walker

how could this be

all you know what is about to break loose

oh

here is Bo

he looks pretty pouty

and here the day starts.....